Little Personal Update!
So hello, December! I have been pretty quiet on my blog this month due to it' being absolutely chaos! I have a lot going on at the moment this month so I am hoping to get back into the swing of things come January! For now I wanted to update you on why I have been missing.
We have seen Santa about 4 times and it’s only juuust the middle of December. Lucas thankfully isn’t afraid of Santa!
At the beginning of November we found out we were expecting. I sadly miscarried after we took announcement photos and the day we got them in the mail.. We had gotten a custom shirt made and magnets made of the announcement.. I didn’t want the photo to go to waste so here it is. I want to let you know, I am doing great emotionally. I have my moments but it is what it is. This is my first miscarriage and I wasn’t as attached but the thought of losing a baby is what hurts. I was 7 weeks along. When I found out I walked into the living room silent and tears pooling in my eyes. Spencer said.. “no….:( nooo.” and I burst into tears. It was the first time Lucas had seen me cry and so he didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t hold my composure. He looked confused and let our a small whine but we have the most precious family hug in silence. Lucas new to comfort me. It was the most beautiful thing to witness. The next few days were a little hard when I wasn’t keeping myself busy.
By busy I mean just offline keeping myself busy. I had to step away from social media a bit besides my mandatory posts for sponsorship’s I had previously signed contracts for. It was tough seeing moms find out they were pregnant, or just announcements or pregnant women in general. I miscarried the next day in the morning and I was pretty lucky with pain because I wasn’t in pain at all it just happened very naturally & thankfully quickly. After all that, I have to say I can’t thank my girlfriend Hayley enough for driving me to my appointments in between classes and checking up on my constantly. ♡
Spencer and I had already found a 3 bedroom, made plans for me to go back to work early etc We really did change our life to accommodate our new little bubs in 9 months. So it was tough but regardless we needed to move out of our current home because we had already outgrown it. It was nice that we still had something to look forward to.
So! That being said, I am now officially back to my day job and I have been packing like a mad woman to move this month to our new home. All this while also making a bed time for myself of 10PM and family festivities on the weekend. So as you could imagine, December has been on fire.
I would love to hear in the comments what you would like to see next on the blog! I have a couple of drafts for a good month of a specific subject but I would like to hear what you like to read as well!